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Argh
I’ve been pissed off these past few days - at everything and everyone - for no reason at all. Scratch that, of course there’s always a reason. It’s just a matter of acknowledging it. I don’t want to think of why I’m annoyed because I’m tired. It’s the same routine and I’m getting sick of it. I want to throw something at the wall and feel the satisfaction as it smashes into bits and pieces on the floor. I’m in need of one of those padded cells Jessica Zafra talked about in one of her Twisted books - cells where I can scream Marissa-like (without the lawn furniture in the pool part) to my heart’s content. She suggested that there should be places where, for a small fee, we could smash plates and other breakables, feeding all our anger and frustration unto them. I’d be a frequent smasher I think. I swear, I’m going to lose it one of these days. I’m wound up so tightly. Argh.
Funny, I’ve been telling someone not to breakdown, to keep on fighting, that there’s always a reason to stay. These days, I find it difficult to swallow my own medicine. But I cannot allow it to happen. I have to keep it together. This is the most inconvenient time to fall apart. Easier said than done. We should have a stock of breakdown days, sort of like tokens. We all start off with 100 breakdown day tokens and we use them up along the way. There should be a way of getting more tokens along the way too. Like maybe every bad relationship earns you 5 tokens or something. When a token is used, we can lose it any time we want to, screw what the rest of the world thinks. Haha, if only life were a computer game. If only time stops when we do.
If I snap at you this week, please find it in your heart to forgive me. Believe me, I’m trying. Pass me the lalabu.
9 Responses to “Argh”
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March 14th, 2005 at 14:30
*passes you the lalabu in the ter’angreal*
Cheer up - it’s almost never as bad as we make it out to be, more often than not; then again, I don’t really know anything about what you’re going through, so I guess a bit of salt is in order.
Sayang nga eh, dapat parang video game - pwede magload pag nagkamali. lol
March 16th, 2005 at 11:58
hay nakow. i know how you feel. sa ngayon nagcha-chant na lang ako ng “lilipas din ito”. sometimes it helps.
ano ang lalabu?
March 16th, 2005 at 15:29
same shit, same day || different day, same shit:roll:
I always feel that.. sana nga computer game na lang.. para rewarding when you earn tokens..
March 16th, 2005 at 20:36
Damnit. Tals, your blog needs to addslash(); before storing them. My comment contained a greater than sign, and I think the code just stripped/ignored/deleted everything after.
Anyway. Recomment - Lalabu is a mixed drink.
March 17th, 2005 at 09:18
hmm… try shouting / screaming at the top of your lungs. RIGHT NOW. It works sometimes Ü I do it when I’m driving in the car at those most frustrating times…
Breakdown tokens? Hmm.. at work we could call that Vacation Leave.
March 18th, 2005 at 14:31
You are not the only one… *hugs* Seems like everyone’s undergoing some stress or quarterly life crisis.
Get some icecream. Or scream your heart out.
This too shall pass…
Take care.
March 18th, 2005 at 19:58
try owning a punching bag and boxing gloves,, print (put name here)’s face and stick it on the punching bag. punch your way to your heart’s content,, heheh
o cia nga pala, watch pacquiao’s bout this sunday to get tips on knock-out punches,, heheh ulit
peace!
March 20th, 2005 at 13:51
Hey guys, thanks for all the hugs and support. I just *might* get that punching bag
I’m feeling much better now, plus I have tons of work to keep me busy. 
Thankers again!
March 23rd, 2005 at 10:56
Hmmm. You know, it _is_ actually a viable business idea. Buy cheap plates, have people pay a small amount (cost of plate + small margin) to draw faces on plates and SMASH THEM! SMASH SMASH SMASH SMASH!
You can also have stuffed toys for cuddling–or ripping the stuffing out of! Mwahaha… Voodoo dolls and the like, too.
I wonder where we can put up a small shop like that. We can call it “Rage” or something…