tala @ so-phobic

I’ve been cranky the past few days with Mog. He doesn’t know that half the time, I’m irritated with him. I don’t want to tell him because I myself do not know why I’m irritated. I just feel like everything about us is a case of wrong timing. When we’re in school, he wants a lot of attention from me, but I want to focus my attention on SSD3. He’s lucky, he knows SSD3 by the back of his hand. But I’m struggling blindly. I know he’d willingly help me, but I feel like this is something I have to do for myself. I’d eventually ask for help, if I’m at the end of my rope, but I want to try learning all of it on my own first. I want to prove to myself that I can do it. Lately, it seems like we don’t have time just for us- we’re always with either Nix or Gino, even after class hours. Especially after classes. (*sigh here*) When I call him up, he’s busy with other stuff, and you know I don’t want to intrude cause I don’t want people disturbing me when I’m doing something (like reading) either. By the time he gets around to calling, I’m the busy one. And I just hate being interrupted when I’m reading. If we’re both not busy, we’re sleepy, so we just say our goodnights, no more conversation. I hate to think this way, but is it possible that we have run out of things to say to each other? We talked a lot more before we became a couple. I just miss those days.

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